50+ pounds lost.
That was the milestone where I was sure I would tell people what’s been going on with me. But that milestone came and went a while ago and I didn’t say much. I quietly kept my milestone mostly to myself with the exception of telling family and a few friends. I can honestly say that my desire to keep quiet quite surprised me. I really thought I would want to share my good news with everyone but I just wasn’t compelled too. I was still in quiet mode. A mode I have been in for the better part of the last 12 months.
2015 was a brutal year – from beginning to end – I lost so many of the horses I loved, I lost some friends I truly cared about, I lost my passion for my work, I lost many illusions (not a bad thing but hard) I was losing my eyesight & my health due to an ever progressing auto immune disorder and as last year came to a close I seemed to lose my voice as well or maybe a more accurate way to say this – I lost my passion to speak. I stopped saying much to friends or family. I stopped posting most of my thoughts on Facebook. I mostly stopped blogging, I stopped writing & I stopped working – I shut down my commercial horse boarding/rehab business that I had loved so much for so long. I just needed to stop.
During this period of stopping I rested. I let go. I spent allot of time being introspective. I re focused my energy on me. I also found a great nutritionist at the beginning of the year. Well actually my best friend of 25 years found her for me, come to think of it my friend also found me the ranch we currently own, but that’s a story for another day.
The nutritionist had a deep understanding (from her own experiences) of auto immune disease & nutritional triggers. She helped set me on a path that has forever altered my life in a way I could never have imagined. The diet protocol for someone with my level of auto immune illness was crazy hard!! But given that I had tried just about everything else i.e. drugs, vegetarian, vegan, raw, juicing, paleo & blah blah blah…. I thought why not just try it and see, what’s the worst that could happen?
The protocol is call AIP with a focus on Low histamine foods. I won’t go into great detail about what it is but suffice to say, I don’t eat any dairy, gluten, grains of any kind, beans, seeds, nuts, sugar, sugar substitutes, preservative’s, chemicals, nightshade veg or any spices derived from nightshades.
What does that leave?? Organic meats, about 20 vegetables and 10 fruits that are safe. Eating only homemade foods, no food from restaurant’s or takeout. Eating nothing that was packaged & preserved. At first I thought there’s no way I can do this but then I remembered hey! You’re losing your vision rapidly at age 49 and your body is aging so much faster than it should be, you better give it a shot. I tried it and it worked. Within weeks I was feeling such a difference in my body. Within months my life had changed dramatically. I had energy. I could breathe (most days) My eyes had stopped rapidly deteriorating and the weight that had been so stuck to my body for the last 15 years finally started just pouring off me. For the first time in a long time, I had true hope.
So here I sit today, with true hope for my future and new goals. Things that had only been a distant dream because I didn’t have a body that would support those dreams – until now.
Looking forward to a future filled with things I had only dreamed of. Like endurance riding, always wanted to do it, never had a body that could handle it but that’s changing! Another 6 months or so and this body should be able to do just about anything I want. Looking toward my next milestone and enjoying the journey to it.